Twenty-five and a half years ago I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I’ve been living symptom-free for over a decade. I consider myself to be in “remission” from my mental illness, because I no longer have symptoms that plague me, so I no longer fit the diagnostic criteria for bipolar disorder.
Bipolar disorder comes with a heavy stigma and is often confused with a personality disorder. For me, it meant I had seasons of depression (lasting weeks) or seasons of hypomania/mania (that didn’t last as long). Hypomania was “fun” and led to productivity, but mania was dangerous. If I didn’t sleep, it got worse.
People frequently message me, wanting me to know what I did to become symptom-free. Concerned parents reach out to me, asking me to help their child heal. I think it’s important to note that there is no one-size-fits-all approach. Everyone’s illness affects them differently, and every diagnosis has a different cluster of root causes. My root causes were trauma-based and psychoneuroimmunological (I was diagnosed with mono the same month I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and I had immune challenges all throughout childhood).
Another factor that is important in my story is personality. I’m a go-getter and a very determined, curious, research-driven person. When I was first told I would always struggle, I believed what I was told. When I began to see research that indicated otherwise, I dug deeper. I realized that I wasn’t as powerless as I once thought. That brought out a “fighter mentality” in me, and I refused to let my label limit me from living out my purpose.
I understand that for many people struggling for years, the exhaustion of fighting with symptoms can leave you hopeless, and that feeling is paralyzing. I hope the information I share next doesn’t fill you with a greater sense of hopelessness. Instead, I want to spark your inner curiosity to dig into what may be helpful for you to incorporate.
